What an absoultely lovely but lazy weekend! Absolutely did NOTHING yesterday, was just fab. K and I spent the entire day watching tv and eating and dozing. feel much more active today, and achieved a lot more! even cleaned the car and sorted the little room, which is all good. I still don't know how that will work when the B comes along ~ if it ever does! Still trying, but we shall see. At least we can use the room now.
Am still agitated for not smoking ~ I miss it so terribly! But I know it is the right thing to do. I think at heart I will always be a smoker, just as I imagine drinkers feel once sober, or in fact a native in a foreign land. You never lose what you have known all your life, I guess it is just learning to adapt, and moving on. I wish.
So we have Buttons, D's cat with us for the next two months. She is cute, but very skittish. I worry about her heart she is so afraid of everything! She is currently dozing next to me, but that won't last long.
And work has been the most painful again! Completely fell out with J ~ which was just horrific, and although everyone was involved, I still had to spend the painful time talking it all through with him, I did let rip though. I told him everything, including knowing about his affair. It was horrid. What I felt was worse was how everyone 'felt sorry' for Jim. felt totally unsupported as ever, but it is my own fault. fighting other people's battles has never got me anywhere.
Anyway, no inspirational workings this week. have quite a lot on at work so all very manic, and just thank ful to snooze int he evening... I will try to get better x
